Me and My Dreams...

Couple of days ago the Grim Reaper came into my dream. The dream goes something like this..

Both of us are in the dining room of my house in KK. I don't remember why but the Grim Reaper opens the sliding door which leads to the back corridor and goes out.. I of course tail it.. (who wouldn't?? You don't get to see the Grim Reaper all the time right??). It's raining outside.. and there's a small house(really small, u know like a guard house) where my Rambutan tree is planted at in real life. Anyway, when I'm already out at the back corridor, the Grim Reaper has already gone into that small house. I can see him there standing behind the window with his mildly flaming glowing eyes either staring back at me or at the house. I'm not sure.

It tickles me to see that there's a Grim Reaper behind the window as if taking shelter from the rain. I don't know what's wrong with me but I find that picture kinda hilarious. It's THE GRIM REAPER! Grim Reaper doesn't take shelters from rain! Maybe the rain is putting off the flame in its eyes, I tell myself. Which makes me giggles. So I go back into the house and find Danny there. I run up to him while giggling and tell him of the Grim Reaper's whereabout and of my funny thought. Basically I'm making fun of it.

While I'm joyfully making fun of it, suddenly there's a burning sensation starting from my forefinger and in my mind I'm like "oh gosh, he's behind me isn't he?", and I turn back and true to my thought, it is there behind me by the sliding door. But this time its eyes are flaming with fire and I quickly apologized, and the burning sensation is gone. I hurriedly rush Danny to the door to leave the house.. and making fun of the situation yet again while I am at it. Deservingly enough for me who doesn't seem to have had it, the Grim Reaper is at me again.. this time with more intense burning sensation on my right hand and it approaches me closer and closer.. until he finally gets me by the door right after Danny leaves. My right hand is within its grasp.. I don't see him grasping me but it feels like it's on fire. I apologized to it profusely and keep on begging it to stop. It doesn't seem to wanna stop so I start praying instead..

...and that was when I woke up from that dream and found myself frozen. I couldn't move. Tried calling for Lionel but I wasn't able to. So I just stayed quite and kept calm and tried to get back to sleep.. because I knew it wouldn't be long as I've experienced it few times before. It's always like that whenever I have weird and bad dreams. This dream wasn't scary at all for me though. More like a casual dream.... well maybe just a tiny bit more than casual.

For a more latest update, I received a free Google T-shirt for participating in "Google Day at MMU". Weehee.. I participated mainly for the T-shirt by the way. They only required me to make a voice recording of reading 500 Malay words or sentence. Some words were just obscene and funny like "perempuan baju ketat" and "(some actress's name) tidak pakai bra". I was trying hard not to laugh the whole time.. especially when there were these two chinese people reading in all seriousness when suddenly you heard either of them read something obscene in BM which I didn't think they understand. Anyway, it's just some project by Google to collect voice samples from native Malay speakers. Here read this, it's clearer:

Google Day at MMU

Over the course of 3 days next month, Google will be in MMU to host a Google Day consisting of seminars in conjunction with their ‘Word of Mouth’ project. The event which runs from the 14th to 16th of July will be all day events organised jointly by FCM and the Google Speech DataOps team. During these 3 days, the Google team together with a network of students and volunteers from MMU will collect voice samples of local dialects for speech recognition research. There will also be free lectures and Q&A sessions given by Googlers on topics such as maps API, open source, leveraging social networks and developing communities. The aim of the ‘Word of Mouth’ project is to collect voice samples from 500+ native Malay speakers. Participants need only read 500 Malay prompts which will be displayed on an Android phone and each session should last not more than 30-40 minutes. In return for participation, those who complete the session will be given a special Google t-shirt as a sign of appreciation.

and here's the t-shirt! Sorry I was too lazy to take it out from the plastic.

Nenek Dusun

Last night I dreamt of our late grandmother or also known as Nenek Dusun or Nenek Kadai. ahaha.. anyway, I could only remember bits of the dream only. But it started off with me bringing my friends to meet her. She was sitting on a chair.. the background was sorta blurred. So I didn't know where we were exactly. The weird thing is, I brought my semenanjung friends instead of the KK friends to meet her. haha. After that, it was just me and her. We were talking and talking though I don't quite remember what was it that we were talking about, but I was so absorbed in the conversation with her. All I remember is how she talked about Kongkong and the rest of the family.. but I remembered she talked a lot about Kongkong... she even mentioned his birthday which was, well at least in that dream of course, 18th May 19?? haha. Yeah, I know that's not Kongkong's real birthday. It was a dream after all. haha. But one thing I remember the most is when in the end she said she missed all of us. That just made me cry when I woke up later on.

When we were chit-chatting away, I noticed how young and glowy she looked. And she spoke fluent english! hahaha. She was just so cool. The way she talks.. the way she brings herself.. all coolness. I like how she was so so so calm and relax.. well that's how Nenek has always been for me as far as I remember. I asked her a heck lot of questions about her and Kongkong.. but I can't recall what were the questions. But I do know that I was fully aware that it was just a dream and how glad I was to see her again. And I didn't wanna miss the chance to talk to her. I've always wished how I was much older and hadn't taken her for granted when she was still alive because I wanna hear her stories and have a lot to ask now that I have a fully developed brain.

And then here comes the small bits of the dream that came and went by fleetingly when we were yapping away. Like a video clip, these are scenes or sometimes snaps of things that came in transitions.. one fading away into another. First it was Kongkong's birthday... when Nenek was talking about it, a print of his birthday typed on an old and rusty paper appeared.. it was only for a short while and back to Nenek and I. Then when she was talking about the family(in Ranau), came in this scene of Aping and Kelek doing a dance in the water.. they looked so beautifully funny. They wore a long flowy top, almost like a top dress.. and long white tights. Their friends were in it as well. All looking like pretty angels or fairies dancing in the water only that they're boys. They were all glowing with the added effects of the flowy top and the all-white attire~ In the dream, I viewed them from the bottom of what seemed to me like an ocean or some kind of a pool, as they were swimming and dancing away to the surface. But being them, all that was meant to be a joke to entertain Nenek. It was damn funny. I liked it when they stop, pose, twirl and swim away whenever they come infront of me.

I never realized how much I've missed Nenek until I had this dream. After waking up, I teared a little when I think of the dream. First thing I did was to text my dad about it. And being my dad, he replied a simple "ok". That's my dad. I know he misses her too.

Till my next dream.. Au revoir et bonne soirée!