Monday, April 20, 2009

Yellow Butterfly



She was just five years old.
A slightly moody day.
She couldn't stay away, from that rivers edge and I.
I turn my back to count.
All the daffodil seas that surrounded.
I close my eyes, and then heard the water wake up.

And I, I can still hear that scream, It's still lingering, in the air, everywhere.
"Mother, please save me, grab my hand" (I can't I can't)
I can still see that face, sink beneath the waves. Baby please, breath for me, give me time I am here.

Where did you go?
Where'd you go?
Where'd you go?
Hey, where'd you go?

Were the angels that lonely?
Couldn't they suffice for anybody else?
Can't everybody just lie to me.
She's home, she's home. Crying for me now.
Every night on a Monday, I will visit the same spot that I hate.
Yes the place that baby loved, and now she can taste it, oh it took her away.

It's been five years since then.
And when it hits September..
I'll feel like I'm dying again.
Ian still won't even talk to me, talk to me!
Isn't this pain, guilt enough?
I can't even look out the window, without seeing reflections distorted in the sun.

And I, I can still hear that scream, It's still lingering, in the air, everywhere.
"Mother, please save me, grab my hand" (I can't I can't)
I can still see that face, sink beneath the waves. Baby please, breath for me, give me time I am here.

And the pain hits me like gunshot.
And I'm heading on the way to the floor, I hear her name and it kills me.
Oh, Bottles up, Bottles up, Bottles up.

And I'm trying my best to hurt me.
Ian says it's never enough.
A razor to the wrist for each unshed tear, cough it up, drink it up, drink it up.


So I had a coma, when I crashed my car in the lake.
I saw your face down there I knew, it was not a mistake.
So I went to the doctor. I told him, oh my heart will break, If I couldn't see you. He just, gave me more pills.

But, I saw you up there.
Still floating by the river.
God, you always loved that river.
I bet your heaven looks just like it.

Then I'll like it too, even though it scares me now.
But when I'm with you.
I'll be just fine, I'll be just fine.

We can sit, we can talk about, talk about...Butterflies. Butterflies. Butterflies.


:'(

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Wind of Change

Rest is what every one of us should have once in awhile.
A break from life's infinite dramas.
It either make you or break you.
But most of the time it is the former.

I am having mine now.
Expecting it to bring more good than bad.
Seeing things in a whole new perception.

Siok juga la.

:D





Saturday, April 4, 2009

Exactly

"Life is short
Break the rules
forgive quickly
kiss passionately, love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
no matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful."


Friday, April 3, 2009

Happy Birthdays

Firstly, I'd like to wish Baby Jade a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY! She would have been 10 by now. Wish I could have the chance to dream of her all grown up, always wanted to and still do.

On the same note, someone very important to me is celebrating his birthday today as well.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE! (nah, bulih pi mengundi suda.)

and also sorry, sorry and sorry a million times(I could say this forever)!! You know I didn't mean to do that on purpose~
Love you! =D

Reason for apology:
Call me an ass but I forgot to wish him earlier. (but I had test very early this morning! I know, no excuses can be accepted for this).

huhu~